Thoughts About Fibromyalgia
Fibro has this way of invading every aspect of one's life. I have over time learned to manage my life around my Fibro but even still some days I get so frustrated that I have to live my life as I do. I so want to be able to jump up, get dressed and spend the day doing normal stuff. I want to go out shopping during the day, go to lunch with friends and just feel normal. Instead everyday when I wake up there is a process to get to the point where I can actually interact with the world. If I do rush it and jump out there, I physically get sick and usually end of vomiting. I know that is gross but it is part of my life. I never tell anyone what I had to go through just to get out of the house, it is to embarrassing. So everyday I wake up and it takes me several hours to "pull myself together". I have to start taking meds. at 6 am and then rest and take more meds. and inch my way out of bed. If it is very sunny I simply can not tolerate the light. If it is hot, I can not tolerate that either. If I smell anything it turns my stomach. If there is a loud noise, that too makes me sick. If someone asked anything of me, I am unable to help them out. It is very crippling.
I love my blog because it is a place where I can share the "good" things in my life but I can't tell my story without talking about my Fibro. My Fibro is a big part of me and who I am and how I live. I am blessed in so many ways and I know that there are so many things worse than Fibro. Still I long for the person I use to be when I wasn't so tired, things didn't make me so sick, I could think clearly and I had a so much to give. I am still a very giving person but I am limited. I am limited by my Fibro, it colors my world and some days I simply wish it would just go away and I could have me back, the way I use to be.
I miss the world.....
I use to know, Fibro changed my life..
See you soon with a new pink tutu skirt I made from one of my daughter's dresses.
I love to recycle....
I love to recycle....
Hugs, Beverly




































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